As a first semester college freshman, I took an upper level class about the anatomy and physiology of speech. I was the only freshman in the class. I took it because it sounded really cool. The kind of stuff that excited me. The reason I thought I'd gone to college. At that time, I wanted to be a Presidential speech-writer. And this class was only being offered this one time, so my advisor advised me to go ahead and take it. The class was hard, but I worked my tail off because I loved it.
I ended up with one of the best grades in the class.
Same semester, different class, very different story. The class was Old Testament Survey. I took it because it was required. Everyone had to take it if we wanted to some day graduate. Therefore, it was a class full of freshmen (and a few transfer students). Ever since I can remember, I have always loved studying my Bible. What I did not enjoy, however, was history. And this class was all about the story of the Bible, i.e. history (which, btw, I have since grown to LOVE and so appreciate). It was hard, and I didn't like it.
By mid-semester, I had a D.
I learned a lot about myself that first semester of college. Namely, I am motivated by enjoyment. I love to have fun. If it isn't fun to me, I may do it, but I will not do it wholeheartedly. Or, I may not do it at all. With some things, that's okay. But in many things, it's not. Because, as a follower of Jesus Christ, I am called to it.
The Bible says,
"Don't just do what you have to do to get by, but work heartily, as Christ's servants . . ." Ephesians 6:7
That is one of the reasons I started the vigilant wives club. Because, although most of my marriage so far has been amazingly full of enjoyment, there are definitely seasons when it feels like more of a requirement to me. A requirement that I have been given by the Creator of Marriage Himself when my husband and I took vows and promised to remain faithful, to always love and cherish, even in sickness or poverty. Until death. Because I promised my husband that I would cherish him. Always. Even when I might not feel like it. Even when it's not easy.
And so, knowing myself, I needed to take drastic measures to ensure my motivation in the matter. Even though motivation really has nothing to do with that fact of the promise I made that day in August almost fourteen years ago. I need to be intentional if I want my marriage to not just survive but to actually flourish. Because, if this were a college course, I wouldn't be okay with just a C (which, btw, I ended up getting in OT Survey).